As I was going through the years of caring for 3 small children at home all day I knew I would one day miss it. I knew it would go by too fast. But when I was in the thick of it, I couldn't possibly see beyond the day to day. Yes, I knew that I loved my children and the bottom line was I loved being home with them. Reading, talking, playing, all the things I teach others to do with their children. If I could do it again, I would. I would stay home when they were little and do just what I did. Although it was the hardest thing I have ever done. Each stage of life has challenges. Everyone has differences and experiences that seem beyond possible to bear. I loved being home.
My life right now is truly, the best it has ever been. I am the happiest I have ever been. I know there will come times that are harder. I hear talk of being the "sandwich generation" and teenagers and adult children. And that will bring its own experiences and challenges. I am still learning what makes me tick and I got very lost in the day to day tasks of caring for very needy, even if it was completely developmentally appropriate, children. Young children need a lot. And my children have gotten older and although there are crazy times (getting ready for school in the morning!) they are so much more independent.
(written December of 2017)
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